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Is it worth saving books?

Wednesday, January 7th, 2009

I doubt it.

I have a confession to make. I hate books.

Yes, I’m a book person. I have a day job in books, I read the things all the time, I dropped out of a graduate program where I made them. I’ve written a novel (just one, so far; I’ve acknowledged the problem and I’m working on it).

I spend so much time around books that it might actually be good for me to watch some television.

As I said, I hate books. I choose to blame, in part, the combination of retail bookselling and two years of “artisan book” this and  “artisan book” that. I started in the retail end fresh from college, hoping for great things, and took a break to do most of a graduate program in that nebulous field called “Book Arts.” To be fair, it’s only nebulous because I haven’t managed to reconcile the commercial book with the artist’s book. I think that’s the key to the question of whether or not it’s worth trying to save books as we know them.

Staring at the disgusting underbelly of the book business for nearly ten years has taught me valuable lessons:

Decent books are overshadowed by the dreck that floods in, day in and day out, in waves of brightly colored paper. This is, I’m certain, related to the complicated accounting of profit margins and bottom lines.

Physically, books are awful. Used books are particularly deceptive: they look fine, until you turn to page thirty-seven and find a flattened mosquito in the middle of a paragraph and the remnants of someone’s ancient spaghetti dinner in the margins. There are books that have rotted for twenty years in a damp basement, and smell of mildew and that unfortunate incident with the furnace; then their owners get offended when one turns down the books. “But,” they insist, “these are gems! Treasures! Classics in the field!” It’s hard to find a civil response, when the book in question is a twenty-year-old text on computer design and may have been used to prop open a window through a rainy summer or five. Then there are some books which I know are great, but the covers are orange from cigarette tar and faintly sticky. I don’t care how good the book is, I don’t have any interest in getting up close and personal with it if I can smell your four pack-a-day habit on it from six feet away.

Then there are the books that have gone out of print – despite the fact that people want to read them – because of some strange copyright complication, and so old copies of them go for hundreds of dollars on various online marketplaces. Perhaps a more business-savvy person wouldn’t find selling tatty copies of such books for fifty times their original price morally repugnant. I do.

New books and their bastard cousins, remainders, aren’t any better. They’re less likely to smell strange, although it happens; they have their own problems. Printing errors are common, and end with books sitting in boxes creating an obstacle course through any storage space that might otherwise be useful. There are books with chapters printed backwards, upside down, or twice. Many “remainders” are, in fact, returns – so your local independent bookstore is probably selling Wal-Mart’s rejects. Don’t question the sticky spots; certain companies use non-removable stickers. We do our best.

After two hundred copies of a book in one afternoon, I know I don’t want to read it. After the mylar jacket is on the hundred and fourth, I don’t have any interest in looking at the cover again, let alone reading it. They’re just repetitive strain injuries waiting to happen, no longer new worlds of story and all that.

Both new paperbacks and hardcovers are perfect bound, most of the time. This means that they’re glued in, and the glue often splits in the first reading. It’s a tolerable binding, if you don’t plan on reading the book more than once.

That’s the root of the problem: books are trash. The book you bought to read on the airplane and abandoned at the baggage claim is never going to find another home. It’s not even going to get recycled. It’s going to end up in a landfill, covered in unidentifiable slime and bits of plastic from discarded toys. The modern book is not an object to be treasured. It’s just another consumable to be left for someone else to deal with.

The form certainly has its strengths, but as a disposable container it lacks a certain something. It might be the permanence associated with books; it might be that the environmental destruction associated with this object that’s just going to end up as trash is … probably not worthwhile.

What’s going on here? Greed. There is too much invested, on the part of those who manufacture and market, in old technologies for an easy transition. This was true of the printing press as cutting-edge technology: scribes bemoaned the terrible new monster and claimed it would ruin scholarship and everything else they could think of. Some scribes embraced the new technology, quietly, and who was successful in the long term? Not the ones who wailed and wanted everything to remain unchanged.

As a bookseller, I feel like I’m unwittingly stuck in something of a cultural dead end, pushing objects that are no longer doing everything they should be in promoting the dissemination of art. I’ve failed my values somewhere along the way, and I’m selling my soul far too cheaply. Bookselling no longer has even the faint gilding of being intellectually demanding; we have computers to do our thinking, and we buy only the pretty books.

The hardest step to make is letting go of Gutenberg. The paper book was a brilliant solution, and had great staying power; it helped spread the Reformation, the scientific revolution, and the renaissance, and it changed the way we look at authorship. That accomplishment was predicated on finding new, accessible pathways for ideas and art to follow and reach more people – which is what nudged along cultural revolutions to shape the modern world.

Clinging to the old technology even in the face of its collapse, and operating as though the new technology is something to fear,  just drives us toward cultural stagnation. Yes, there will still be artists and thinkers, but they will be marginalized if they can’t use any of what came before for a framework – remember what Newton said about standing on the shoulders of giants.

Books have had their day. They’re still useful for the things they’ve always been good for. There are new considerations, though, and they’re important ones. Imagine the creative possibilities of following in the creative footsteps of Gutenberg (and his more successful successors) and embracing the potential of the new technologies we’ve got available. What made the printed book so successful? Not its scarcity, and certainly not some printer-imposed difficulty in using it. Maybe we should leave books to what they’re valuable for, stop treating them as trash, and think about how we can use the other options we have; stop letting the companies that value only the bottom line dictate how we communicate with each other and use those creative minds of ours. If we honor Gutenberg’s accomplishments, we’ll let the book as it was go, and resurrect it as something new.

[I wrote this last summer, submitted it to a journal, decided I was tired of waiting for it to get read, withdrew it from consideration and re-wrote it. I have, well, kind of a lot to say on the subject. I believe there will be more.]

Finishing.

Monday, July 28th, 2008

Why, oh why is finishing so hard?

Say you have an essay. Say it’s about a topic near and dear to your heart and whatever intellectual pretentions you might have. Say this essay is in its second draft, more or less, and you think it’s going somewhere interesting. Assuming, of course, that this hypothetical essay actually communicates what you want it to, which assumes that whatever hypothetical audience sees it is actually making an effort to read between the lines. There aren’t many lines to read between, after all, and they don’t know the context that created it, but if our hypothetical author can’t have some faith in readers, there wasn’t any point in writing it to begin with.

What, then, makes it so hard to let go of this hypothetical essay, call it finished, and send it out into the wide and frightening world of publishing?

I can make some guesses – there’s the obvious, that the hypothetical author is terrified of rejection. It might be that our hypothetical author is concerned about having something so vicious out there attached to her name. It might just be that our hypothetical author is a perfectionist, which seems to be something every writer who cares about craft struggles with.

Oh, and let’s admit it, there’s a question in the hypothetical author’s mind – what right does she have to pass harsh and sweeping judgement on a cultural and technological icon? …That, I think I can answer to my own satisfaction, so ignore it for now.

And there’s the question of whether or not this is about the process or the end product. It might be a waste of time to stop somewhere in the middle, and it’s clear that the middle is that stage before the creator lets go.

Finishing is moving on, and letting go of something you’ve worked on for ages. Sometimes that’s just a relief, but unfortunately not often. Part of the problem is that finishing is usually the longest stage of a project. It contains all the fiddly details that you ignored when you were in the middle of whatever it was because they weren’t vital, and all the criticism. Admitting that you’ve done everything you can, and it’s not quite perfect, is difficult at best. Especially if you want to reach an audience. They’re going to judge you on what you have done, not what you think you could do.

Our hypothetical author is too close to the piece at hand to tell if it’s actually as good as it ought to be.

Even if it is worth other people’s time, where should it go? There are so many options, even for this short of an essay. If our hypothetical author cares about the piece, it ought to go somewhere perfect. Do you start out small, or do you aim high and brace for failure?

What’s it like, being in the slush pile?

They say that challenging yourself is useful, though. Which is, as far as learning things go, absolutely true. Yet another thing I’m learning over and over again from spinning, in fact. I have a distinct and possibly ridiculously high goal, which I am probably thousands of ounces of fiber from achieving, but in the effort I’m getting better at making something that is pretty good yarn.

Probably the answer is aim high, accept failure, and keep doing it until it comes out right. I think that’s what all the advice I’ve ever gotten sums up to.

Fun, games, and nothing constructive.

Saturday, July 5th, 2008

What’s been on my reading list: Hard Boiled Wonderland and The End of the World and The Ultimates. I know, it’s a combination not found in nature. Murakami was a fairly good idea, despite being given to me by committee. I thought it was a little odd, near the end, but then again it was a little odd from the beginning. The Ultimates, on the other hand, are superhero comics. They’re good for that. (I’ve got Fables and Civil War, too, but first I’m going to read Louisiana folktales, because I’ve got another writing project to get to. Not, this time, about freedom of information.)

On the fiber front, well, that fight with my wheel threw me off. I’ve still got some stuff on a drop spindle, but here’s the problem: I know what I want to use it for. I just have to get a loom and learn how to weave, hah hah.

Not to mention the fact that the moment of truth has arrived: will I finish wish? If I’m going to, it needs to be over the next two weeks.

In which I read, and make silly mistakes.

Wednesday, June 25th, 2008

In the interest of reading things outside of my defaults, I’ve decided to bother the booksellers at my friendly neighborhood bookstore. Porter Square Books has some good people working for it, and they give fascinating recommendations.

I got a Wendell Berry novel, Andy Catlett: Early Travels, and read it the other day. Mostly I want to read Faulkner now, which is unusual.

Then, the people behind the counter suggested The Name of The Rose, which of course I’ve already read (and ought to re-read), The Shadow of the Wind, and something by Murakami. Which batch is not all that far out of my usual reading, but I think it should do nicely anyway. 

I’d forgotten something about reading Mojtabai – I either take weeks to do it, or need one serious sitting. All That Road Going is clearly the former. It’s good, but it’s not one of those fast, easy, freedom-of-the-open-road numbers.

Also, I ought to be reading something entirely different, but … I’m a slacker, I admit it.

Or I could be finishing this knitting. I’m about five rows from the end of a shawl I’ve been working on for more than a year and a half. It’s going to be lovely, and I am going to have to find it a nice home far away from me. 

There’s something to be said for sitting in my (clean) kitchen, writing. 

Also, I just accidentally deleted all the comments on the blog. Whoops. This might turn into a problem, since I still haven’t actually figured out how the spam settings work. Anyway. I still like you, even if I deleted your comment. I’m going to go back to trying to talk myself out of trying to come up with a way to buy a loom, and step away from the computer before I do something else silly.

In which there is reading and writing, but no ‘rithmetic.

Friday, June 13th, 2008

Seriously, please go look at my etsy shop. It’s forgetgutenberg.etsy.com, and it’s over in the sidebar as well. 

Today, I finished Hell & Earth, which is one of the many books Elizabeth Bear has coming out this summer, and The Titan’s Curse, which is the third book in the Percy Jackson series. They’re both quite good, although in no way alike. I wish I knew some convenient middle-school boys to give the Percy Jackson books to. I know some people who will want to read Hell & Earth, and a few who probably should whether or not they want to. The pile of books I need to read continues to grow – I’ve added A. G. Mojtabai’s All That Road Going and Mo Yan’s Life and Death Are Wearing Me Out. (I loved Republic of Wine, so I clearly needed the new one.)

Other than that, I’m working on making words. It seems to be working, which I’m pleased about. I’ve given myself an unreasonable deadline in the interest of finishing wish. I’ve got this schedule all planned out; I’m not going to follow it, because that’s not what calendars are for in my world. On the other hand, I’ve got a concrete goal for the project, which should encourage actually doing it. Then I have to decide whether or not I want to try taking it back to Alabama. I think that’s going to depend on what direction the work goes in this time. Given the idea I came up with – assuming that one can spin the paper I want to spin – it might just not be a book arts project anymore.

I scraped in just under the wire and finished a charming skein of bamboo on Wednesday night at knitting. The only problem, since I had to leave the store, is that I’ve got something like half of a bobbin of singles left. Oh, the tragedy. I’m pleased with the yarn, although I’d really like to get the next bit of bamboo spun to a lace weight.

What I really want to know is why this writing thing is making me so much more productive about all the other projects. It’s probably exactly the same principle as having a paper to write causing your house to be clean. I know that’s not just me.

Well. That’s interesting.

Friday, June 6th, 2008

Once upon a time, about five years ago, I decided to try the NaNoWriMo experience. It was interesting, to say the least, and I produced 50k of words with no plot but a little bit of decent worldbuilding. I read that … document again a few months ago, and thought I might want to do something with it. I intended, I think, to write a short story or two and be done with it.

It can’t be that simple, though. Of course. It developed a plot, and maybe a little bit of character, and suddenly I’ve written this tremendous amount of stuff. The thing is, it’s still awful in a lot of ways, but it’s satisfying to make the attempt. It’s also well on its way to being the length of a novel, which is an accomplishment all on its own. Writing fiction is a huge challenge, although it’s actually probably more accurate to say that getting a whole piece of fiction is the challenge. It’s something about plot consistency, or maybe it’s just that it’s so much easier to get off the nice simple linear path if I’m writing something that isn’t based on a narrow field of research. Of course, I’m going to finish it and either hate it or be too freaked out to do anything with the darn thing. I don’t know how anybody gets the cursed confidence to sell words.

On the other hand, writing frees up a lot of other creative energy, so I’ve been working on other projects. I’m even scheduling some time to finish that … thing that isn’t a thesis (unless I decide that I do want to re-contact my old department and see if I can work something out) anymore. I might fail miserably to finish it, but I’m working to solid goals – and oddly enough, giving myself deadlines is sort of working. This is a new feature. Mostly I’m terrible with deadlines, but time is kind of at a premium around here for some reason, and as long as I’m keeping my goals reasonable and focusing on specific milestones in one project at a time, it’s working. Saying that is probably going to make it suddenly less effective, but I’m going to risk it anyway.

Either way, though, it’s been a successful couple of months. Writing is another one of those things one has to do often and in large quantities to appreciate properly. I suppose that’s why all the advice about blogs includes several repetitions of “post often.” I should probably pay more attention to that. Sorry. I appear to be putting most of my words in this other document.

When the current piece is done,  I’ve got another one to do, because certain elements of the plot suggest the thesis for a piece of research-intensive writing. That should be fascinating, at least to me, especially since it requires a solid basis in sixteenth century English law, modern law, principles of aesthetics, two major technological breakthroughs, the idea of a singularity, and visual culture. That’s not a whole lot, right? I can totally manage it.

Now, if I can maintain this level of optimism, I think I can do anything