It’s true. Seasons are pretty neat.

March 9th, 2010

This may not look like much, but it’s the best thing I’ve seen in months. Well, it kind of feels that way, anyway.

light

Do you see how there’s almost some light left in the sky? (The blue part. That’s sky.) There’s hope! Spring might come again! It was after six o’clock in the evening when I took this. Also, we’ve seen the sun for like three days in a row, and it’s kind of mindblowing.

I’ve got a huge post in the offing, which is probably going to be offensive, so I’m going to wait until a slow weekend to make it public. I’m also still thinking about the anti-university project, and I’d like to think some of my ideas have been all right. I’ll share sometime soon, I think.

Until then, if you have sunlight available: go enjoy it.

Distraction!

February 22nd, 2010

Also, my daily quota of exclamation point.

I stumbled across a book called Empires of the Silk Road: A History of Central Eurasia from the Bronze Age to the Present. The Introduction and Preface are absolutely charming (in particular, the author’s stance on postmodernism), and the Prologue thus far is delightful. It’s a selection of origin myths, following a certain formula, from a number of different people. The epigram for the chapter (in a Cyrillic original and an English translation) is from Janghar,  the Kalmyk national epic. Why had nobody mentioned this fount of unbelievable awesomeness? (To be fair, one of my best electives in collitch was a class called Nomads, Steppes, and Cities, which did hint at it quite a bit.)

What can I say? It’s research.

(Also, the Epilogue should be pretty great: it’s called The Barbarians, and claims to unpack the history of Western cultural stereotypes about barbarians…)

Also, due to a small ’splosion of ire on my internets a few days ago, I am thinking about the lines between joking about something harmful in order to make it possible to process it and joking about something in a way that trivializes it. Because, of course, I read a fair number of SF blogs, and some YA blogs, and there’s quite often an undercurrent of how we deal with race & cultures & other things that aren’t our own. It’s a big issue.

And for fun, I write novels. (Sometimes.) Believe me, I worry about how my “cultural appropriation” comes across. I like to think of myself as someone who does it mostly so I can learn, rather than contributing to glorification of various hideously colonialist misinterpretations. Or, you know, whatever. (Hence the research. My current project is an alternate/second world history of part of the Mongol empire. Kinda.)

(Also, I don’t necessarily think that abnormal should have a negative connotation. Just sayin’…)

But what I really want to be doing (aside from reading history) is embroidering a rug. Which is, clearly, a long-term project. And one I don’t have the materials for. But apparently there’s a technique which uses chain stitch on sturdy backing, and makes fabulous spirals and curves, and I really like the idea of making rugs. (Although, really, latch hook is pretty fun. Despite  a certain similarity in result to shag carpeting, and therefore something out of the ’70s. Not everything about the ’70s was awful, though. I’m pretty sure.)

And I’ve been watching Hill Street Blues, which I haven’t watched in, oh lordy. Probably more than fifteen years, tho’ I don’t want to dwell on that. It’s still really good. (And I’m surprised by how much of it I remember, and by the fact that one of the more delightful secondary characters from Star Trek (hi, I’m a huge geek, just so you know) was in an episode. So my facial recognition skills aren’t as bad as I thought they were.)

Now I’m just procrastinating. I bet there’s a more productive way to avoid doing things that might be misconstrued as work…

Can’t talk. Geology.

February 9th, 2010

Banded Iron

… All right, I’ve been doing this incredibly slowly. I blame the satin stitch. What was I thinking?

On the other hand, it’s bizarrely satisfying. I’m hoping it will be finished by May.

Is there anybody out there?

February 7th, 2010

No?

Good.

1. How many people out there would pay $175 dollars a pop for nifty … huh. Actually, now that I think about this, it might not be a bad idea. The question is one of editorial oversight, and I suppose a little legal consideration: but. Nice editions of public domain books? Not actually a terrible idea. I mean, at least that much each, and oh boy limited edition… and what would Google say? (Also, I’d have to get over my fear of InDesign and figure out how to actually make printing four-up or eight-up work.)

2. I am fairly certain that I need to get over the detached chain stitch, which I am using to make lazy daisies, and … it’s out of hand.

3. There’s something broken in the way people think about books. I can’t figure out what it is. Well, ok, some of it is that people are unwilling to think critically in a historical context, and some of it is that I think we’ve lost track, as a group, of how bookselling profit works. You know, think back to lending libraries. It’s just like Netflix. Only with paper. And less mail. (Of course, who remembers that there used to be multiple daily mail deliveries in certain places?)

4. Why does anybody want to work in a bookstore, anyway?

Addendum: Shiny!

January 31st, 2010

Purple shiny thing

POD?

January 31st, 2010

1. You know who I think needs to get the EBM? Coffee shops.

2. What is going to save the independent bookstore? Quite possibly an archaic business model in which booksellers are printers.

3. Do I still value the independent bookstore? Kinda. Not as much as I did five or ten years ago. Shockingly, with age comes disillusionment.

4. Is there hope? Eh, probably. The future isn’t all bad.

5. Technicalities, however, are becoming more and more important – while the specificity of language we’re using gets blurrier and blurrier. I suppose that’s a jargon problem, along with a lack of respect for the layman.

6. Why is craft still, still a dirty word in some circles? (Why are people still beating the dead horse of art vs. craft, as though they’re somehow mutually exclusive? Or is that just me?)

Braindump

January 24th, 2010

Some things, in no particular order:

Making bread, since I still don’t do it very often, is an adventure and a treat. Fresh-baked bread with experimental red pepper dip: totally awesome. (It is exactly what I thought it was, and I would like to obtain a mortar and pestle for the next time. Also I will plan the roasted red peppers a little tiny bit better.)

I got Piracy: The Intellectual Property Wars from Gutenberg to Gates. I can’t wait to start reading it. If there’s unexpected radio silence here, that’s probably why. (The cover, by the way, is kind of twee, adorable, and stood out quite well on the shelf. Of course, it was a face-out. The spine is nothing special.) (I am so irritated that the author teaches at the University of Chicago, and not somewhere local to me.)

I am thinking about POD in an entirely different context this week than I was last week. I still don’t know any of the useful technical details. I’m on the case, though.

Respect the Spindle, which is Abby Franquemont’s book, came out almost two months ago. I just noticed and read it on, erm, I think Saturday. It’s very good. It makes not carrying a spindle around everywhere seem quite silly.

It’s very close to the deadline for registering to do the open studio thing I did last year. I’m dithering. It’s probably silly not doing it, though.

It kind of horrifies me that Jerry Pinkney hadn’t won a Caldecott yet. I just, I dunno, assumed that he had. Ah, well, now he has.

I have been overcome by the urge to listen to opera and jazz again. What I need, I think, is a mashup of Philip Glass (Akhnaten) and Miles Davis (Bitches Brew).

… which is my cue to step the heck away from the internet.

Have I lost your attention yet?

January 21st, 2010

So little to do, so much time … strike that, reverse it. (I didn’t hate the Tim Burton remake as much as some people, but Gene Wilder will always be Willy Wonka. Even when I re-read the book. Which I should do sometime soon.)

Just in case you’ve been expecting it, I do have some photographic architecture for you -

Wall

The important part of this post, though, is more thinking about the University of Free Expression. (Actually, while I love the acronym, I wonder if I could call it something else. The University of Free Experience? The Universe of Free Enlightenment? The Utopian Freeway Experiment? No, wait, that doesn’t work at all.) (Also, it’s not a utopian concept at all. At least according to my vague and distant concept of what Utopian means. Feel free to correct me.) (I may like parenthesis too much.) I have this vague idea, an old mission statement, and the sudden burning desire to move on in my life and work.

Well, ok, that last one isn’t so much sudden as increasingly necessary.

Keep to the significant parts: I have a vague over-arching plan, some lovely idealism to crush, and … nobody to help. (This is where being less than social becomes a problem; I don’t talk to people enough, so when I need to have a social network … I kind of look around, shrug, and go back to whatever I was doing before I deluded myself into thinking that I had enough connections to make a collaborative project successful.)

I do keep starting these on the weekend, when I think I have plenty of time to finish and post before the dreaded light of Monday morning … and here it is, Tuesday already, and I’m not sure where I was going with this anyway. Except, apparently, Thursday…

Of course: I was getting at the problems of a call for participants. Whatever this is, it’s still so vague that I’m not sure I could legitimately ask people to join in – unless they already know what I’m getting at. I have an alarmingly diffuse social network (my own fault; I’m terrible at mingling at parties), and there just aren’t many people I know well who are in a position to even work on this.

Face the facts: I have to start. So I’m going to try (key word, that) to come up with a plan for what I’d do if I was pursuing my semi-scholarly interests. And … well, it’s a start, right?

Maybe having a plan will keep me from getting completely derailed every time life throws me a fastball. (Some pop-ups might be ok. I was all right with those. I dunno about curves.)

Lordy, I’m an idiot.

January 13th, 2010

I woke up this morning with about the most obvious observation in my head, and simply could not get back to sleep. (Given what time that was, it’s a good thing I have today off…)

Clearly the problem with intellectual property is that the content creator isn’t terribly important anymore. Copyright extensions don’t serve the artist, they serve whatever corporation has taken over distribution.

Which is why publishing is losing its tiny little mind. Because we don’t need the corporation for distribution, as long as we’re willing to accept that we’re not going to reach, you know, a billion people. See? It’s greed being a problem again.

That’s all. (Next time I think I’m going to ramble on about creative re-use, orphan copyrights, and other aspects of the status quo that are just weird.)

A Very Important Question, and a snapshot.

January 5th, 2010

The shot first, I think, for those of you who aren’t interested in large chunks of text:

Escalator

I took advantage of a rare moment in which the escalators were mostly clear.

Now, the very important question. This epic anti-institutional intellectual project that I’ve absconded with (by invitation, I hasten to add) – why me? Why am I so dead set on not going through the usual channels for my educational pursuits?

I tend to think this is obvious, but I live in my head all the time. So here you go – I think it’s profoundly stupid to make certain that young people, no matter how smart they are, without certain kinds of financial support, will not be allowed to pursue their intellectual pursuits. I think it’s ridiculous to expect rigid specialization and creative freedom to co-exist (ok, so mostly I don’t think the institution values creative [intellectual] freedom, which might be part of the problem). And … well, to be blunt, I want to pursue a somewhat unusual course of study and would rather not go into hideous amounts of debt to do it, particularly because it makes me less employable than I already am.

Transcendent exhaustion – I don’t think I’ve been this tired, and this engaged mentally, in months. I suspect that means tis time for me to sleep – and hope that whatever toxins are in the air I breathe all day at work don’t fry my brain before I can make this project a reality…

All right, that was a lovely break – and there was some unexpected cheesecake as an added bonus – in which I chatted, yet again, with a co-worker who is planning moving away and going to grad school. I sort of knew how completely I’d lucked out on the undergrad lottery, but … it sounds like it has gotten so much worse that thinking of a reasonable way to make this work for “undergrad” as well is absolutely vital. Without, of course, becoming a diploma mill. I think I can solve that problem – no diplomas.

Kidding aside, though, there really are three problems with grad school as it is currently institutionalized: location, fees, and people. Location is easy to deal with – by unmooring the educational experience, we remove the necessity of uprooting (which might cause a certain social problem; there is quite a bit of value in shaking oneself out of routine). Fees, we’ll get to eventually – but I think Tracy’s comment on my previous post answers quite a few of my concerns on that front. People. Right. See, this is the problem with grad school. Especially if what you want to do is some ridiculously overspecialized thing with just a few instructors – find a program with three instructors, and discover that you don’t get along with even one of them … it’s a recipe for disaster.

What was I saying? Why me? Well, see … I want to go to grad school. I’ve been saying this for three years. Except what I mean doesn’t seem to describe graduate academic experience in the institution as it stands, and besides that I have a clear idea of an absurdly multi-disciplinary path of study which, honestly, doesn’t fit into even the most eclectic brick and mortar programs I can find. Clearly the solution is to create a community/space in which I can pursue this course. Right. Because otherwise it’s figure out how to go to a halfway decent law school without taking out a hundred and twenty thousand dollars in loans, since I doubt very much that I want (or could get) a job in the kind of corporate law which might allow me to pay that one off – and then realize, three years down the line, that I still have to create a new model of university in order to achieve my goals.

So I’m pretty much exactly the target audience, here. I’m pretty sure I’m not the only person thinking like this, either.